I’ve been hearing from some of you wondering if there’s still life on Anthem Ridge Drive. Yes, Jerry and the kitties are alive and well; and finally, I too am beginning to join the land of the living. Over a month ago I got bronchitis that didn’t want to clear up even after two different kinds of antibiotics. When bronchitis finally cleared up, total lethargy had set in and I’ve rarely left the house until just the past week and only for very short jaunts at a time. And it has been fun stuff like doctor, dentist and physical therapy with a dose of musicals and church tossed into the mix. Jerry has been an amazing and devoted caregiver, cook, and chief bottle washer!
I will share this once and then hope to refrain from speaking about it for a VERY LONG TIME. A year ago my oncologist put me one oral chemo capsule per day for a rare blood disease. Then it was increased to two a day. The numbers kept creeping up so eventually on 70 capsules a month. The latest prescription is 90 capsules a month. Thus the reason for the lethargy and difficulty snapping out of a simple thing like bronchitis. My immune system has been weakened, but my spirit remains strong and optimistic (most of the time but with a few weepy, pity party sessions sometimes). Unfortunately my appetite also remains undaunted so I’m not exactly shedding pounds like a normal person with this condition would experience. Ah, but normal is so boring. Alas, I have lost a few pounds but nothing to write home about. Six down and twenty to go!!!! Big sigh……
Being a “shut in” truly does get lonely. I’m blessed to have my Jerry, the cats, and lots of books to keep me company, but it’s truly wonderful to have friends and neighbors stop in for a coffee or chat. What I have hopefully learned from this experience is the importance of remembering those in our community who can’t get out much. I’m more keenly aware of those in assisted living or senior apartments near us who cherish visits. Let me encourage you to visit those folks. Henri Boulard, a Jesuit priest, had this to say “Never say that you have no time. On the whole it is those who are busiest who can make time for yet more, and those who have more leisure time who refuse to do something when asked. What we lack is not time, but heart.” Seriously, don’t you love that little challenge? It spoke to my heart and hope it will to yours also. I do apologize to those of you who wanted to visit, bring food, etc. who were turned away. It’s just that I was honestly too tired at the time. All that’s changing now. Praise the Lord!
There have been some crying jags, but I found this quote from Brian Jacques (born in 1939), and while I have no idea who he is or his claim to fame, the words are quite lovely: “Even the strongest and bravest must sometimes weep. It shows they have a great heart, one that can feel compassion for others.”
My prayer for you and me is a great heart and compassion for others. Thanks for listening! I seriously love you!